Since last week I have had sleep problems. The period hasn't come for two months. I am about to start a fight with the young people that always gather outside my windows. It looks like before drawing the outer world I have to look inside first.
After having talked with Hui, I realize that my personalities of being a student and a teacher are extremely different. Now I am back into the role of the lonely student. I was trained to be very competitive, which has become such an inveterate part of me. And that means I have to give up being friends with my classmates. Maybe it's time for the adult me to be reconciled with the childhood me now.