Wednesday, January 18, 2012

me and ME / 我和我

從上個星期我開始有睡眠問題,月經也兩個月沒來了,這兩週快要和窗外的年輕人對峙。好像在畫外面的世界之前我得先檢視內心的世界。

Since last week I have had sleep problems. The period hasn't come for two months. I am about to start a fight with the young people that always gather outside my windows. It looks like before drawing the outer world I have to look inside first.

和小蕙談過之後,我發現我當學生和工作的人格真的很不同,現在我又回到那個很孤獨的學生身份,儘管我不想,我已經被訓練成要很有戰鬥力,而為了競爭,通常在班上我是沒有很多朋友的,我想該是大人的我和我心裡從小孤單的我和解的時候了。

After having talked with Hui, I realize that my personalities of being a student and a teacher are extremely different. Now I am back into the role of the lonely student. I was trained to be very competitive, which has become such an inveterate part of me. And that means I have to give up being friends with my classmates. Maybe it's time for the adult me to be reconciled with the childhood me now.












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