In my last entry, I mentioned how I was totally dedicated to my first idea during the weekend. On Sunday evening when I dined with Jazel, she asked me how come I didn't give a second thought to the idea picked by Lou and my classmates. I blurted out, "I don't quite get their point," and on saying that, I figured it out. After all, the new images I produced to go with the rose image are not so closely linked to it. I had planned to take Sunday evening off, but then I sacrificed my leisure activity of watching silly TV series for drawing new sketches.
My new idea has to do with the theme of fate. My point states that no matter which context we place the story of Romeo and Juliet, the former will miss Friar Lawrence's message coincidentally so that he ends up believing that Juliet is really dead, which leads to his suicide. I chose the era of the play when messages were delivered by messengers, the 1950s when telegrams were dispatched and modern days of cell phone communication.
Different from the abstract thinking of my previous idea, this time I'd like to make use of the comic form in three images. I found it really challenging because I don't usually pay attention to the real proportions of human figures or buildings. However, lately the teachers have often mentioned the importance of getting references. Thus I looked for architecture, clothing styles, and typography of all the eras needed. I drew based on the information before settling for the final draft. In the process, I made much effort trying to present the flowing lines of really admirable graphic novelists or comic artists.
Compared with many classmates who can't let go of their preferred subject matters and styles, I am at the other end of the spectrum. I am more than ready to take others' advice, and I discard what I have without nostalgia. I'd like to hear what others think as well, all of which has much to do with the deep-rooted thought that I don't think I am good enough.
On Monday after Elie took a look at my drafts, she said to me straightforward that I should do the Shakespearean era comics. I accepted it gladly.
In the original play, Friar John, who is the messenger, is quarantined when he tries to deliver the letter to Romeo in Mantua. I found this version hard to comprehend, not to mention the terrible writing and typography. I covered as much as possible while doing the planning, but it ended up as a disaster. After I discussed with Jazel, I decided to try the modern version first.
There were many details in the drafts, but upon thinking that the ad is designed for the metro station, most passengers will spend no more than a few seconds reading it. I therefore simplified the images yesterday.
Though the final images look really simple, it took me a whole day to decide the final look and try out the colors.
Jazel helped me with the typography and layout.
I redrew individual images before arranging the final version. I didn't finish it until 10:30 pm, and meanwhile, I was dehydrated.
I felt that this was what I could come up with, so no matter what comment the tutor gave me, I wouldn't feel guilty toward myself. After Lou looked at my work today, she said: This is not you. The work is boring. She said the thumbnail images I did before are way better than this because the images look dead.
On my way home I thought to myself, I shouldn't feel discouraged. I never think I am good enough, but Lou likes the part of me I negate. And as I am eager to make progress, I have thrown that part of me behind. In trying to "communicate" through my image, I sacrifice what I have. Well, if this is a difficult question in life, then life isn't that difficult. My lesson is to find the middle point.
In the afternoon when I was reading the story of Pippi written by the Swedish illustrator Astrid Lindgren, Pippi said, "How glorious it is to be alive!" Indeed. I get to see the fascinating winter scenery, find out my problems and face them with courage without feeling depressed for more than six minutes. And fortunately, I have another week before the final due date. Fortunately...