gifts / 禮物

最近忙到神經麻痺，覺得自己有點在浪費生命，每天只想著把手邊的工作完成，拼命往前衝之後，卻沒有得到任何快感，這好像不是我要的人生。

Lately I've been so busy that my nerves are almost numbed. I have a feeling that I am wasting life. The only thing on my mind every day is to finish all the work that rolls in. But I don't feel any sense of achievement after I rush forward so blindly. This isn't the kind of life I want.

還好，我得到John和Sharon送給我的禮物─新畫桌，自從換了桌子之後，整個作息的方向也隨之改變，聽著從房間音響流出來的爵士樂清楚多了，而且晴天之際，我和陽光面對面，畫圖的時後感覺非常之幸福。

Fortunately, I got a superb gift from John and Sharon--a new art table. Since I got it, I have changed the seating direction. I can hear the jazz music that flows out of the stereo in my room better. On sunny days, the sunshine and I are face-to-face. I feel so happy when I paint.

今天早上讀到令我醍醐灌頂的一句話，Jack Kerouac說，愛著生命的每一個細節，看來我得重新讓我的神經紓緩，好好感受我渺小但美麗的生活。

I read a quote that moved me this morning. Jack Kerouac said, be in love with your life, every detail of it. It seems I have to let my nerves breathe to enjoy my humble yet beautiful existence...