Miss Moon / 思思與月亮

一個半月沒有寫網誌了，因為我想要全心全意準備信誼的繪本比賽。

Because I'd like to be devoted to the preparation of the annual picture book contest of Hsin-yi Foundation, I haven't updated my blog for one and half months.

        今年的心情和往年很不一樣，腳步沒有那麼趕，我學會享受這整個過程，雖然很多時候對自己不滿意，或者到最後要印刷的階段，我無法操控所有的變因，不過很幸運地在最後幾天把稿件交出去了。

   I noticed my change this year. I learned to pace myself and enjoyed the process. Though there were moments when I was upset with myself or when I couldn't control the printing quality, yet, I was lucky enough to submit my story before the deadline . 

        想要偷懶的時候，楷維會繞過來監督，並且不斷地問：你為什麼沒有在畫圖？讓我心生罪惡。孩子們也會問：你為什麼都沒有得獎？雖然我也不知道，他們還是很體貼地說：可是我很喜歡耶！

   When I felt like lazing around, Kai would act as my supervisor asking constantly, "Why aren't you drawing? How did the story go?" He made me feel so guilty that I had to crawl back to the study. Kai and Von also asked, "How many times have you participated in the contest? How come you never won?" I didn't have any clue either, but they'd comfort me with their sweet talk: We love your books a lot!

        為了想要找到較優的印刷行，跑了很多家店，其中一家老闆對我說：這個印出來就是會有不可預測的白點，我想評審要看的不是精美的印刷。我想了很久才找到答案，今年這個比賽對我來說已經不是我和其他人的競爭，而是我對自己的要求，因為比賽是短暫的，而這本書的內容記錄的是思維的人生，還有我對自己的期許。

   To look for a better printing shop, I made much research in person. One of the owners said to me: I can't assure if white dots won't be there, but I bet it's not the printing quality that the judges will focus on. I pondered over his words for a long while, and that finally led me to a clear-sounding answer: To me, the contest is no longer about the competition this year. It's about me and myself. After all, the contest is temporary, but this book records Von's childhood and my self-expectations. 

        這週去看了伊朗電影「我們都是這樣長大的」，看到每個畫面都像看到我的人生，雖然中間有些憂愁苦惱，但我最後的結論都會回到：這一輩子可以一直畫圖，我真是個超級幸運的人！

   I went to the Iranian film The Rooster Trademark Paper this week. Every scene so reminded me of my own life. Although I couldn't help feeling anxious and frustrated while preparing the bookn, I always came to the same conclusion: Being able to draw on and on for my whole life, I am such a blessed person!