Treat me nice / 溫柔地 對待自己

開學的前一天，還是有好多想完成的事，不過，這一切都得放在一邊，先進行一些重要的儀式，放下過去，調整好腳步，明天以後的日子才能走得安穩。

I still have so many goals in my mind on the day before the new semester starts. However, I am aware that there's something bigger: I need to undergo some essential rituals to bid farewell to the past and adjust my pace first. 

前幾天得知了同事佳怡過世的消息，因為我們是類似性格的人，所以我感受到很大的情感衝擊。去了喪禮，悲傷很神奇地被轉換成力量，也讓我再一次正視自己的生活結構，過去的幾個月裡，我給自己很多目標和壓力，明明身體有一些狀況，我卻沒有好好對待自己。感覺佳怡在幫助我提醒自己，要放掉一些東西，要慢慢來。

A few days ago I learned of the tragic news that my colleague Chia-yi passed away earlier this month.  Her death has had a huge impact on me because somehow in her, I saw myself. Surprisingly, her funeral transformed my sadness into strength. More importantly, I am reminded to rethink seriously about my life. In the past months, I've given myself much pressure. Even though my body can't take it, I still dismiss this problem. I feel that Chia-yi is telling me to let go of some things and to take it slow. 

小智的檸檬 / Chi's lemon 

面對新的開始，人事物都換新了，收起舊的札記本之前，翻閱了過去幾個月的記錄，雖然覺得自己過得有點灰頭土臉，但記錄中其實有一些愛的片段，好像是說，美麗的片刻當下不一定是要充滿光亮的。

I am surrounded by new people and new objects at this point of life, but before putting away the old journal, I thumb through the record of the past few months. Apart from frustrations, there are also some moments of love. After all, beautiful moments don't always have to be shiny. 

還是忘不了爸爸在機場揮手的身影 / Dad's waving goodbye in the airport

生活就是走著走著，過度專注小細節，忘了大風景，總是要一再被提醒，要退後一步看。

As we all know, when we focus too much on details, we lose sight of the big picture. We have to be reminded to take a step back and get a perspective constantly. 

沒有答案是正常的。

It's ok that we can't find the answer sometimes. 

的確，最近有些時候心亂，還好運動過後總是會平靜下來。

I do lose that peaceful feeling sometimes, but fortunately, the evening walk always calms me down. 

春天會再來的。

Spring will come again. 

兩個多月前的某一天，佳怡對我說，她發現我的部落格，用坦然的態度開始和我聊生病和生活，雖然只有過這樣的交談，她卻在我的生命裡留下強烈的力道。重新出發之前，我也要在部落格上留下對佳怡的祝福，同時也對自己說：溫柔地對待自己吧！

One day in mid-June, Chia-yi accidentally told me that she found my blog, and then she began to chat with me about life and illness. We didn't have that much interaction, but she has left such a deep impression on me. Before the new semester begins, I want to send my best wishes to her and to myself!