Role / 角色

手機：一個月以上處於關機狀態；即使開機，我的耳朵老是接收不到鈴聲。
電腦：壞了一個星期；我在各方面都很積極，但是只要家裡電氣壞掉，我就變成最被動的逃避者，沒有電腦就讀書吧！我的周末在書堆裡度過，心情平靜到不行。
電視之一：已經走到生命盡頭，螢幕黑黑青青的，看了半個小時就有種眼睛要瞎掉的不祥預兆。

Cell phone: was turned off for more than a month. Even when it’s on, the tone rings hardly reach my nonchalant ears.
Computer: totally crashed for a week. I am not an ostrich unless when it comes to electric appliances. I thus crept into my warm bed, accompanied by a novel, a dozen of picture books, and several movies for the weekend.
One of the home TVs: refused to work normally. Instead, the screen has a livid hue, and it gives me the illusion that I am going blind soon.

最近過著很原始的生活，和電器沒有甚麼緣分，不知道是不是因為如此，我在人際接觸方面，神經突然敏銳了起來，這大概就是我們說的有失有得吧。我有意無意感受到某些很細微的情緒，一開始發現之後，突然電路就瞬間接通，看了那麼多風景又怎樣呢？這個超能力的但書就是，我只能默默觀察，即使看到了很多人的不快樂，我不要自己做出主觀或自以為是的意見和判斷，因為這世界上已經太多人只搶著讓別人聽見他們的聲音，我不需要再加入任何的雜音，而且我也沒有資格。我最多只能默默地伸出手、或者安靜地傳遞生命的訊息，希望能有所幫助。

I’ve been living like the primitive people for a while, but we shall not forget, God is fair. When we lose something, we gain something else.

What am I blessed with? With my connection with the electronic world cut off, I have been compensated with a finer-than-usual vision into many souls’ secret emotions. Does it count as clairvoyance? But there is a condition. I can only see, without making any subjective judgments or self-presumptuous opinions even when I witness suffering. After all, too many people have fought to have their voices heard and taken seriously. I don’t feel inclined at all to worsen that cacophony. I can only help by lending a hand silently, by being a messenger dropping hints and clues that might of be use, even to the slightest degree.

坦白說，要客觀地看待一切不容易，可是我想了許久，每個人在世界上都有他要扮演的角色，如果說我擔任的是觀察者，我不想只是就這麼過去，我看到的至少可以有積極的意義。

It’s not always been a piece of cake to withhold my thoughts and remain unruffled. But I guess we all have our roles to play in this world. If I am meant as a viewer that is granted insight into others’ inner worlds, I won’t just pretend that I didn’t see anything.

就說我選擇的是積極地被動，包括我給你的幫助。

You know I’ll be there to give you a hand, in any form.