Saturday, June 29, 2013
Sunday, June 23, 2013
I imagined the mountain concert we are going to in July. The painting is placed in the living room, and one evening this week even the sun reveled in the cool atmosphere of the picture. It was so fascinating that we couldn't help recording the instant with the camera.
Thursday, June 20, 2013
I had kept imagining the moment of peeling an orange and the stimulation it would bring to my five senses, so I ended up buying some for the real experience. The feast begins with the fragrance the orange exudes when I hold the little orange ball in my hands. Next comes the excitement of peeling an orange. Apart from the visual stimulation, with my fingers lacing the thick yet juicy peel, I get to feel the orange through olfactory and tactile contact. Then inevitably the golden juice will drip and smear my hands and face. The climax lies in sending the beautiful fruit into my mouth for it to savor the sublime taste, which is a perfect mix of sour and sweet love.
Every instant in life is a beautiful combination of five senses. There is an everlastingness to the moment of eating an orange, and any other moment.
Sunday, June 16, 2013
Thursday, June 13, 2013
It has been a year since I came back from London. I know I have found my place, but I give myself a 6 out of 10, given the fact that I've always been full of joy.
I had that brand-new feel from head to toe right after I returned. One of my colleagues asked, "Do you have any good news?" I said no, but seeing almost all of my friends head into marriage one after another, I was made to think of it as the path I should take as well. (The truth was that I did nothing but daydream at home all the time.)
I had to confront some conflicted emotions in me. Fortunately, I heard many stories along the way, and it felt like God was giving me opportunities to gain my perspective. I found my answer at the end of spring: How can I depend on someone I don't know well for all my happiness? Instead of predicting what my future will hold, I should turn to the present and live in it.
Letting go of my expectations and desires, I feel relieved. Last week my Thai teacher gave us two books on the lessons taught by the Buddha. After reading What the Buddha Taught by Walpola Rahula, I felt I could score a 9 on the scale of happiness. I love one excerpt a lot:
Another very important, practical, and useful form of 'meditation' (mental development) is to be aware and mindful of whatever you do, physically or verbally, during the daily routine of work in your life, private, public or professional. Whether you walk, stand, sit, lie down, or sleep, whether you stretch or bend your limbs, whether you look around, whether you put on your clothes, whether you talk or keep silence, whether you eat or drink, even whether you answer the calls of nature--in these and other activities, you should be fully aware and mindful of the act you perform at the moment. That is to say, that you should live in the present moment, in the present action. This does not mean that you should not think of the past or the future at all. On the contrary, you think of them in relation to the present moment, the present action, when and where it is relevant.
People do not generally live in their actions, in the present moment. They live in the past or in the future. Though they seem to be doing something now, here, they live somewhere else in their thoughts, in their imaginary problems and worries, usually in the memory of the past or in the desires and speculations about the future. Therefore they do not live in, nor do they enjoy, what they do at the moment. So they are unhappy and discontented with the present moment, with the work at hand, and naturally they cannot give themselves fully to what they appear to be doing.
Today I had a chance to ask Sophy the questions: Why are you hurried? Why do you want to rush to the next stage of life? It looked like I was counseling her, but I was asking myself the question.
I am leaving behind my British life, but I have never felt so sure that this is the job I want to do and that this is my life. My mission is to expand my bliss because there are so many people out there who have no idea how it feels.
Now I feel truly blissful.
Monday, June 10, 2013
Every day people come to tell me their life stories. I used to wonder what was the use of knowing so much, but now I've come to see some very important rules and patterns of life.
I've learned an important lesson lately: All the objects and people in the world have their places and balance among one another. Don't ask for what doesn't belong to you. Instead, open your heart and feel what life wants to say. I believe we can thus create a new and better balance through introspection.
Saturday, June 08, 2013
Most of the time my train of thought lunges forward to the next task on my to-do list. At moments like this, I will think of Thich Nhat Hanh's words: Live in the moment of peeling an orange ...
Tuesday, June 04, 2013
I met up Penny last week near National Taiwan University. In the evening, she offered to give me a ride home. Truth be told, I wasn't very sure, but seeing her trying so hard to convince me, I believed it'd be fun.
In the beginning, I was puzzled by Penny's route. Once I thought we were veering away from the campus. Fortunately, she found a way to ride across the university and gave a interesting tour. When we headed into PENNYLANE, I couldn't help telling her: Since last fall I've wanted to tell you that there is a lane named after you here! The climax of our little trip took place when Penny wanted to sail across a four-lane road near the back gate in 11 seconds! And, WE MADE IT!
Though I am way older the age of being a uni student, I have to admit it's really awesome to re-experience youth once in a while!
Sunday, June 02, 2013
I have heard many life stories over the weekend. On my way home in the evening I can't help thinking, though sometimes I envy others for what they have, at the end of the day, I still prefer mine because there is a vast clear sky and in the sky there are bound to be stars no matter what.